Insight into my Soul

The other day, I had a dream that I couldn't see. I shared some of the details of this dream on FB, and now I'm going to share it with you.

In the dream, I was having trouble seeing. for reasons that I cannot recall, I could never open my eyes completely. Any glimmer of light made them hurt very badly and I had to keep covering them with my hands to block any kind of light. My eyes felt as though something was in them, kind of a granulated or gritty feeling. No matter what I did, like I recall walking around and I recall driving my car; where I went, like going home or driving to the store or who I was with, I could not open my eyes completely to see. It was the weirdest thing.

When I woke up, I began to write about it in my journal (before I shared it on FB). Soon after, I was thumbing through the pages of the journal and came across this:

"Faith is believing in what you cannot see. Not seeing increases your other senses so that you still have faith." (Dr. Michael Freeman).

Now, I absorbed all of this in a spiritual sense. For example: HEAR the voice of God; FEEL His presence; TASTE His goodness; SMELL the sweet aroma of the Great I AM.

After reading that, I began to ask myself, am I trying to do anything by what I can see with my natural eye, instead of my spiritual eye? Am I trying to see with eyesight instead of insight? What truths am I not seeing? What is it that God wants me to see, but I'm not at this time because of blockages?

Was this dream and the quote that I later stumbled upon, telling me to not rely on the things that are seen, but instead to go deeper and rely on the things that are unseen; to tune into the my other spiritual senses?

Well, this morning, while I was reading Spiritual Liberation by Dr. Michael Beckwith, I came across this passage:

"Through meditation we transcend the personal mind and begin to see, not with eyesight but with insight......When you realize that the Spirit individualized itself and named itself you, you unhook yourself from nonsense, such as what others are thinking about you, even what you are thinking about yourself. Instead, you begin to ask, 'How is the Spirit functioning in, through and as me?' Place that question before the tribunal of your consciousness more and more frequently and you will begin to attune yourself to insights from the realm to the real. You will break the thought-chain of belief in a personal mind, a mind filled with self-doubts that hold you hostage and cause a lack of fulfillment. It is possible to end a false cycle of thinking right now if you are willing to deepen, to make your spiritual practice a priority."

And so I did. I meditated on that passage for a moment because I wanted to fully comprehend its message to me. And there it was, the answers to my questions, all rolled up into this one passage. Insight at its best.  Lately, I have been filled with a lot of self-doubts which have caused me to be stuck in this rut, that I just could not explain. Only, I didnt recognize them as doubts, but as fears (fear of making the wrong move, making the wrong connections, not having enough finances to do certian things, etc), which in a way, doubts are fears. I had been trying to explain them away with all kinds of excuses, which still made me feel some kind of way. I was having these mood swings, not towards anyone but myself.

And that is why that dream came to me. It revealed that I am blocking some truths. In a spiritual sense, there was a war going on with me and the revelation of I AM, and the nonsense of what others think of me and what I think of myself, were trying very hard to keep me from seeing this truth. The truths (insight) were in conflict with my the untruths (eyesight). That nonsense was the grit and granular that was in eyes. And the battle was causing pain within my soul. The battle was keeping the Spirit from operating in me, through me and as me. That dream was Insight into my Soul. It was a wake up call.

So, on this day, I release the blockages, the nonsense away from me so that I may live according to the Spirit with all of my spiritual senses including inSIGHT. And my Soul opens to receive the wisdom of the Spirit within me.

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